You cannot rush it.
It's a process, a pruning, refining. You cannot wish or hope it away, pray it away, or skip past a part. You cannot rush it.
Life has a way of catching up with you and making you face demons of the past. I admit, I was one who thought that I could just push forward. It was with sincere heart.
Some call it the wilderness. I've been lost.
But, at some point it became clear to me that I have spent the better part of my life trying to push past the lesson, or pain, or discomfort.
Something about when God gets you...alone.
It's in my face now, and though I never intentionally tried running from my issues. I did think I could compartmentalize them, and place them in the back room. No, you have to go through it.
This time, my heart is open to receive direction, to take every step in the process, because I don't want to be in THIS place again. I'm listening, I've quieted my mind, and I know I'll still make mistakes. However, the God of the universe walks beside me. He needed me back here to be whole.
This is life right? You cannot rush it.